• Jun 22 Sun 2008 05:08
  • Lonely

I've always thought staying alone is very free and easy compared

to staying with family or friends. Somehow, I don't really get any

near to that feeling. I feel, lonely. To be honest, at this very

moment I can actually hear hands of clock ticking. It feels weird.

I don't like this feeling. To be honest, what every man fears the

most in this world ain't anything but lonely. I'm feeling it very

often nowadays.



Yes, I feel lonely..



It's 5 in the morning and I'm still awake. Eyes are very tired yet

I have a very energetic mind. It's as if I drank bottles of redbull

if that's what they call it. Energetic drinks. I just thought the

only thing I can do is to blog what I have in mind right now. You

see, whenever things get in the way I write songs, I play games, I

go out with friends. I just need to get myself all busy with certain

activities so I won't feel like I'm alone. In fact, the truth is I

am alone. Most of my close friends, brothers here have gone home due

to unforeseen circumstances and some of them are really busy with

work. I thought I could get used to that cos I really do like the

feeling of having my own space and my own little crib..



Humans are very unpredictable species. Once you got what you've always

wanted, you tend to not want it as much as before. Very ironic..



I have a son who can talk and put me to bed every night I sleep. He

tends to speak only if I asked for it by pressing his tiny hands.

He's a teddy bear. Call me childish but this son of mine has the most

bond with me and I ain't asking him to speak cos he run's on batteries.

I wouldn't wanna lose this precious voice. As I am blogging I have a

lot of visions from the past and I really do miss them.



Can I, have them back? Merely impossible I'd say. Why? Only I should

fill in the blanks myself.. At this point of time, you will start to

miss certain people a lot =*(







Friends asked why do I look so restless nowadays. It's not hard to

tell seeing them moustaches and beards on my face. I have no idea

why I just don't feel like using the razor placed in the bathroom.



I wanna be Brad Pitt. Not. Haha.



It's good to blog but not in the middle of the night. Or very early

in the morning. Here's a very good example. It does a lot of damage

to your eyesight and makes em' tired and watery. Then again, it could

help to make you sleep right after the minute you click submit from

your browser. Oh well, it's time to sleep my dear Eric. Give your mind

a rest and yeah, sweet dreams..

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  • jztaffss
  • 健輝 你並不孤單阿<br />
    因為你有愛你的家人,朋友,還有我們這些支持你的fans<br />
    :)
  • 01
  • Dear 大大,<br />
    雖然都是英文,我看得比較慢,<br />
    但想先給你一個大抱抱,<br />
    you are not alone.<br />
    you are not alone.<br />
    you are not alone.<br />
    you are not alone.<br />
    you are not alone.<br />
    ....................
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • 01
  • 大大記得看一下悄悄話喔,thx。
  • ninagreenna
  • 大大…你都好晚睡哦…早點睡啦…<br />
    <br />
    快讓泰迪熊哄你入睡吧…這樣身體才會勇健~:)<br />
    <br />
    sometimes when u feel alone, maybe it&#39;s about time for u to change... <br />
    <br />
    cheer up!…evrything will become better from now on...<br />
    <br />
    這裡可是有一堆的粉絲們陪著你的…ha ha...
  • David Chua
  • Ho~好不容易才登录上了无名小站的部落格<br />
    大陆的IP总是打开失败<br />
    代理了一下成功<br />
    <br />
    大大 你不孤单哦<br />
    还有这么多你的FANS 朋友 家人支持你
  • 悄悄話
  • 呀嵐
  • 噢..不看了〕〕<br />
    完全不會看~<br />
    但遲一點看吧~準備字典!
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • wlsalice
  • 人就是这样的啦。。。。<br />
    忙起来就很忙。。。。<br />
    空闲就觉得寂寞。。。。。
  • mimim4050617
  • 大大別忘了還有我們<br />
    關心你的粉絲押<br />
    你並不孤單=)
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • a2922a2922
  • 人總會有空虛的時候,當覺得孤單,記得想想家人朋友歌迷<br />
    心情會好很多喔~加油吧~!!!^^
  • 蓓蕾花開
  • 人生有三件令人快速增長的法寶:離鄉、失戀和死別,而這三<br />
    件都跟孤獨有關,所以在台灣的大大,會是內心越來越成熟穩<br />
    健的大大。<br />
    我們都愛妳,提起精神,加油!<br />
    <br />
    健輝這是大陸林健輝輝吧的吧主輝灑姐要我轉達的。
  • 蓓蕾花開
  • 健輝,輝灑姐是從台灣去大陸創業,而我是從上海漂洋過海來<br />
    台灣生活,我們都承受了孤獨,但孤獨也使我們成長。<br />
    記得!你並不孤獨,你有愛妳的父母,兄妹、朋友,更有那麼<br />
    多的大人物在支持妳,加油!
  • 悄悄話
  • sheihyen
  • I used to have this kind of feelings too when i was studied <br />
    outside alone, but u know?u r just so much luckier than us <br />
    coz u have a lots of fans at Taiwan, China and Malaysia. So <br />
    dont feel lonely there.. i can see how close u n ur family.. so <br />
    just cheer up and sleep earlier...Don think too much!M&#39;sian <br />
    we all supporting u now. u must step forward to achieve ur <br />
    dream there~ Msia boleh, u boleh too!
  • meipin
  • I think every body will get this kind of feelings ... but you have <br />
    to cheer up man.. :) you are not alone, you have many fans, <br />
    friends and your family. If you feel lonely just contact ur <br />
    family or ur friends or just going out, this can help u.. just try <br />
    it :) If there&#39;s possible go back to msia for a week just for <br />
    relax ur mind :)<br />
    I&#39;m one of ur fans after I saw u in Xing Guang Da Dao...<br />
    Jia you Lin Jian Hui... You are the best....
  • Kathy
  • 快d做返果個...精神返啦!!<br />
    erm...你個樣唔似brad pitt...<br />
    似....似....似....唔似你lor...<br />
    有咁多人陪住你...<br />
    又點會lonely呢?<br />
    其實唔知你睇得明無..<br />
    純粹希望你知道....<br />
    好多人喺你身邊架!<br />
    加油呀...<br />
    但偶爾瞓唔著係可以好好咁諗下野...<br />
    都唔錯呀...<br />
    但not always lor!
  • 悄悄話
  • Amy
  • 你不孤單...加油耶!
  • wanpinbau
  • 辛苦了~~加油喔~~
  • cat6433
  • 有時候孤單也不錯,可以想很多事<br />
    不過,也不要把自己一直局限在這個框框中<br />
    出去透透氣,一個人或和朋友…<br />
    Eric 加油唷!
  • eileen
  • you really have to get some rest now...<br />
    relax and have a nice sleep....<br />
    rest~~rest~~rest~~<br />
    <br />
    sometimes human is just a human...<br />
    when we got we want, we will not treasured it...<br />
    when we start losing it, we will get depressed...<br />
    so, cherish what we have....and treasure it nicely....<br />
    <br />
    珍惜.....<br />
    <br />
    take care<br />
    ~eileen :P<br />
    (el850211@hotmail.com)
  • serene
  • 离乡背景到它乡拼事业,偶尔会感到孤独,但那只是一个过渡<br />
    时期,只要自己常常往好的方面想所有围绕在自己思绪的事<br />
    情,撇开不好的情绪,那才能让自己的生活过得easy. 一直活<br />
    在不肯定的生活状态,可会让自己愈烦恼。寂寞时,让自己到<br />
    外透透气,或把另外一个兴趣(除音乐〕转换成你生活上的另<br />
    一个推动力。 骑脚车到处逛逛也不错哦!cheer up!
  • qinyun
  • 你一定要坚持下去。。。<br />
    离乡背井本来就不容易!<br />
    加油哦。。
  • shaleneooi
  • youre just being emo. making a trip home would help, thats what<br />
    i always do
  • 悄悄話
  • shijing
  • But don&#39;t you find that you somehow write better when during those times? I know I <br />
    write more meaningful and more honest blog posts when I&#39;m tired or a little <br />
    intoxicated (I&#39;m not exactly one who drinks though).<br />
    <br />
    Maybe because I&#39;m overseas at the moment too, so I relate to this post of yours. It&#39;s <br />
    definitely no use to tell you not to worry - that doesn&#39;t help at all. It&#39;s actually healthy <br />
    to miss people, to feel lonely. It makes you more appreciative of others when they <br />
    are around you.<br />
    <br />
    With so many fans in Taiwan and Malaysia supporting you, at least you know yo&#39;re <br />
    doing one thing right. I&#39;m supporting you not only because of ATQ but because you <br />
    were my CPU senior.<br />
    <br />
    So, senior, GAMBATE!
  • caryssa
  • cool.. finaly.whole blog in english.. n now i can understand <br />
    every word.. but..i m sorry for those chinese-ed fans...<br />
    <br />
    well.. trying to look like brad pitt is not doin u any good.. but <br />
    leaving the "brad pitt" image will surely makes u a lot more <br />
    adorable... so , get ur butts up from the sofa n movew to d <br />
    raor now.. haha..
  • wenjie
  • u are not lonely, you still have us, friend, family and fans..<br />
    human have a lot of need and wants, we cannot satisfied<br />
    everything that we had...<br />
    cheer up, man...<br />
    jia you...
  • 悄悄話
  • megrose81
  • please fight your loneliness with your favourite music ....ok?! <br />
    cheer uppppp!!!! mr eric....
  • 悄悄話
  • JiaErn
  • Hey,there.<br />
    do not be afraid to be lonely,<br />
    sometimes it is good for you to feel lonely,<br />
    so that you will start to think and appreciate what you have.<br />
    i am now in the same situation like you too.<br />
    i miss my home a lots!<br />
    so what will i do when i reach home,<br />
    i will give my family a big hug!<br />
    All the best ya!<br />
    <br />
    *oh,forget to tell u,<br />
    i am from malaysia too.<br />
    ^.^
  • lesleycsh
  • 建辉,<br />
    我的英文不好,所以不能用英文回你。<br />
    <br />
    你的感受我明白,因为我试过也知道这感觉。。<br />
    告诉你喔,我在中学初中三年级时就已经一个人住了,就是考PMR的那一<br />
    年开始。<br />
    我从小开始就很想有自己的空间,所以在初中二年级我就开始证明给家人<br />
    看我可以一个人住,我可以很自立,独立。最后我终于可以搬出来一个人<br />
    住,当时后好开心,觉得很自由。但不久后我就和你现在的心情一样了,<br />
    虽然我并没有离乡背井,依然还是在槟城。我从小开始就把所有的重担都<br />
    背在自己的肩上,所以很自然的我不会把我所面对到的问题和难题带回家<br />
    告诉家人,我会想办法自己解决。那时候的我以为自己可以很坚强,我以<br />
    为自己可以解决所有的问题,但原来不是。原来我很软弱,我时常想要有<br />
    个依靠可以靠,但到最后我找到了,就是我家的四面墙的其中一面墙,当<br />
    我累是我就回去靠着那面墙,尽情的哭,哭累了就会睡了。睡醒了就又是<br />
    新的一天,一天的难过伤心寂寞一天当就够了,新的一天就开始新的生<br />
    活,因为每一天都会不一样,虽然每天要做的事都一样,但过程,心情,<br />
    方式和一切一切都会不一样,所以新的一天不要让昨天影响着,只要想着<br />
    标杆直跑,不要回头望就可以了=)<br />
    <br />
    所以大大,你要加油。我是一个女生都可以做到,大大你也一定可以做<br />
    到。在你的背后,有许许多多的人支持着你,爱着你,<br />
    所以你更要加油=)<br />
    <br />
    亲爱的大大,加油!!<br />
    加油!加油!加油!!!<br />
    <br />
    我爱你。。。<br />
    加油。。。。
  • 小真真
  • 為了看大大的文章<br />
    特地把塵封已久的字典拿出來<br />
    真的覺得英文越來越進步了~~haha~<br />
    後來才發現 其實把滑鼠移到生字的右邊即會出現譯文<br />
    哇哩勒.....#$%<br />
    之前也是為了上網看大大 都弄到快天亮<br />
    直到驚覺身體狀況不佳才回復正常作息<br />
    早起再看一下大大 是我每天的活力來源喔<br />
    I love eric~~haha~~
  • 悄悄話
  • sadonna
  • u&#39;re not the only one who feels this..because i am in this<br />
    situation now...lonely..
  • esther943
  • Yo bro,<br />
    <br />
    Good times or bad times? <br />
    It&#39;s depends on how we look into it. <br />
    The world is round, sometimes we&#39;re up into the sky and the<br />
    opposite, down to the hell, who cares, btw?! <br />
    Oh shitty, since when i acted like a philosopher?!? HAHA....<br />
    <br />
    U know what, LYC asks me to gate crash Seed&#39;s office when i&#39;m in<br />
    Taipei, wah... like "zui sing" already! "Zui Lam Kin Fai" hahahaha<br />
    Then i told her la, if it&#39;s Lee Hom then i&#39;d probably be the<br />
    fangirl gate crashing :P:P:P HAHHAHAHA<br />
    Don&#39;t angry la, if i ever meet you in the street/gate crash your<br />
    office, you must spend me a meal at Taipei McD la.... see "ming<br />
    yik lei la" hahaha<br />
    <br />
    That&#39;s all my bullshitting la, hope able to cheer you up a<br />
    little bit. :hugs:
  • 悄悄話
  • ss70634
  • 哈哈哈哈-加油啦
  • PeNgUiN
  • You&#39;re not the only one who&#39;s so close to loneliness. I&#39;m a good<br />
    friend with Mr. Loneliness too. Take your time to manage your<br />
    emotion. I bet you can do much more than just letting loneliness<br />
    to overtake you.<br />
    <br />
    Sometimes loneliness lets you know yourself even deeper.<br />
    <br />
    是寂寞? 还是孤单? 学会习惯孤单,试着去了解寂寞吧~
  • waynephoo
  • oh my god~~~~<br />
    你的样子好。。。。。。沧桑。。。。<br />
    不要太夜睡啦。。。。
  • Roslyn
  • i do that, staying up late reasoning myself, but i usually find <br />
    myself too tired to have figured anything out<br />
    we all get lonely sometimes along the way, but we all feel <br />
    alone, it keeps me going thinking that we are all in this <br />
    together.<br />
    hope alls well;) 加油 大大